Where I Am

Things have been so up in the air for me. Both personally and career-wise. Obviously, this blog will be (or should be) mostly about photography and weddings. But I can’t help but imagine using this forum as a personal journal open for my friends and clients to see.

I leave myself vulnerable to you, as you’ve been to me by allowing me to take your photo. Guess that seems fair.

So yeah. Here’s my first blog post ever (minus the numerous test posts I put up). And here I am, telling you I’ve had a real tough go of late.

I’m in a tough position right now because recently, I made the decision to branch out on my own from the studio I currently am at (unbeknownst to my bosses, so shhh). Starting your own business comes with its own world of headaches, but I’m also dealing with working full time at the tail end of busy season along with a host of personal and family issues that seem to be hitting all at once.

Things at work aren’t great, to say the least. My morale at the studio has been quite low recently. It’s a combination of feeling unappreciated, uninspired and knowing I am no longer growing in my field as an artist with them. It’s the last part that gets me the most.

Most days, while feeling stuck in the studio, I’ll stare out the window and imagine all the possibilities that my photography can take me, but just isn’t. I find myself yearning so badly to take my photography to a different level, a different direction. I know exactly where I want it to go, I know exactly how to get there. But there’s just been one thing that has been holding me back. And that’s money.

Money is always the bottom line, isn’t it? It’s tough times out there. Right now, I’m slowing securing enough funds to get my studio off the ground. I still have a ways to go, which I think may be the cause of most of my stress. But I can’t really let that get me too down. It’s not a huge amount of money in the grand scheme of things, and I really have no choice at this point.

So as inquiries keep coming in, it’s been quite the struggle juggling everything that’s been going on in my career. Don’t even get me started on my personal stuff. Unless a pint of beer is involved. Or three.

About jase

New York City based wedding, beloved, street photographer.
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